22.9.09
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14.9.09
Words of the day..
Words of the day, what comes first, what to say?
"How was work son, OK?" I can't swerve or delay,
I could swear I could curse, I could blurt, I could spray,
But I'm rehearsed, I'm au fait, plus adverse..in a way...
So in terse terms of grey, in a nervous pursed face,
I retort, in a false, forced, farcical phrase,
"Oh, Fine.." I negate, though the truth's now aloof,
and the proofs in the pudding, that is burnt at it's base..
But the hurt isn't made, not revealed or relayed,
what I wanted to say, is in a purse, locked away,
So I'm stained with the grey, paint sprayed by the taste
and the worst of the words? Today was only Monday.
"How was work son, OK?" I can't swerve or delay,
I could swear I could curse, I could blurt, I could spray,
But I'm rehearsed, I'm au fait, plus adverse..in a way...
So in terse terms of grey, in a nervous pursed face,
I retort, in a false, forced, farcical phrase,
"Oh, Fine.." I negate, though the truth's now aloof,
and the proofs in the pudding, that is burnt at it's base..
But the hurt isn't made, not revealed or relayed,
what I wanted to say, is in a purse, locked away,
So I'm stained with the grey, paint sprayed by the taste
and the worst of the words? Today was only Monday.
9.9.09
conscious minds.
Mad late/behind on the blog slant. So apologise firstly if you've been lusting for some good old fashioned bloggage from them ntrprnrs.
So here it is.
Lately ive been having mad deep talks with people about people. Particularly based around the terms poison and money. Now it is a big belief of mine that people should just accept people for themselves. And that drive and ambitions should be shared amongst all. However through these talks ive been having ive come to the conclusion that I hate the heavy emphasis on money synthesis. Not attempting to sound at all almighty when i write this blog it disgusts me how much people focus on being part of some unreal, superficial celebrity world. To be a quick celebrity and to earn celebrity status goes beyond all my understanding of people. It seems as though the more we progress technologically the slower we become mentally. With the help of the xbox360 /playstation 3/ the internet even people dont want to strive no more. There are few and far between whom go out and push themselves to set themselves aside from the rest to be truly individual. The majority of people ive met drift within a bracket of mild celebrity wannabe by there actions. I mean, i myself have been guilty of this. However i feel i know the traits of myself and can stop this anytime. But the people around me who gamble to get the quick buck to improve lifestyle to enter fucking big brother to become a famous nobody for the next few years to earn money, or the people particularly the women? who snort cocaine to set themselves as far as possible away from the title of a 'woman' to become edgy and chic, like that of someone who is reknowned for the rebellious act i.e celebrity. Its all poison.
During my talks i spoke about real celebrity. What happened to the people who truly work. Who strive. Who work all day long sometimes up to 10-12 hours, then come home to a family to feed, then run a marathon in training, before further extending there brain capacity by reading or studying. the people who work 2-3 jobs to improve there lifestyle. Now i know most people will say you'd do the same if you won the lottery! However there are ways and means of how to act, to re-iterate im not saying im perfect and im also not saying everyone who plays or wins the lottery acts fake. My point is there are so many people around me who are striving for somewhere/place they have no idea of that it confuses me just how deluded they all are. Regardless of the time they were born, what happened to pure iconic figures...not celebrities like beethoven and einsteins, dali? Young male who falls deaf becomes one of the most influential pianists ever to touch the earth, genius scientist who's told his career in maths will fall short because of his abscent mind towards the subject and spanish surrealist painter who was ejected from art school after arguements with his teacher after he's told he is uncreative. I feel like im saying what im not trying to say too much, so what i am trying to say is. These people didnt give up. they didnt give in, they weren't on television. or on the radio. they werent in the sun newspaper. They had no ideas of celebrity status. They were self driven by there love of life. They wanted nothing but to be.
Possibly driven by the amount of time I find I have since my recent breakup. I find myself searching for more answers than what most people can offer to me. Recently I came home and did something that felt good- deleted up to 100 'friends' off of facebook. random and why am i telling you? soul food. I never speak to these people, i may do in the street. But unlikely i will. Some will never speak to me ever again. Some are so divided about who they are they'll live a life chasing something they don't understand. I dont want to be around these people. I dont have too, that's my decision.
This is the real thinking green.
Ntrprnrs is having a huge re-vamp in its ideas.
Im unsure what the lads are thinking towards it right now. I sense an absence of interest but that might just be my defiant tone as i write this?
ntrprnrs- for conscious minds.
So here it is.
Lately ive been having mad deep talks with people about people. Particularly based around the terms poison and money. Now it is a big belief of mine that people should just accept people for themselves. And that drive and ambitions should be shared amongst all. However through these talks ive been having ive come to the conclusion that I hate the heavy emphasis on money synthesis. Not attempting to sound at all almighty when i write this blog it disgusts me how much people focus on being part of some unreal, superficial celebrity world. To be a quick celebrity and to earn celebrity status goes beyond all my understanding of people. It seems as though the more we progress technologically the slower we become mentally. With the help of the xbox360 /playstation 3/ the internet even people dont want to strive no more. There are few and far between whom go out and push themselves to set themselves aside from the rest to be truly individual. The majority of people ive met drift within a bracket of mild celebrity wannabe by there actions. I mean, i myself have been guilty of this. However i feel i know the traits of myself and can stop this anytime. But the people around me who gamble to get the quick buck to improve lifestyle to enter fucking big brother to become a famous nobody for the next few years to earn money, or the people particularly the women? who snort cocaine to set themselves as far as possible away from the title of a 'woman' to become edgy and chic, like that of someone who is reknowned for the rebellious act i.e celebrity. Its all poison.
During my talks i spoke about real celebrity. What happened to the people who truly work. Who strive. Who work all day long sometimes up to 10-12 hours, then come home to a family to feed, then run a marathon in training, before further extending there brain capacity by reading or studying. the people who work 2-3 jobs to improve there lifestyle. Now i know most people will say you'd do the same if you won the lottery! However there are ways and means of how to act, to re-iterate im not saying im perfect and im also not saying everyone who plays or wins the lottery acts fake. My point is there are so many people around me who are striving for somewhere/place they have no idea of that it confuses me just how deluded they all are. Regardless of the time they were born, what happened to pure iconic figures...not celebrities like beethoven and einsteins, dali? Young male who falls deaf becomes one of the most influential pianists ever to touch the earth, genius scientist who's told his career in maths will fall short because of his abscent mind towards the subject and spanish surrealist painter who was ejected from art school after arguements with his teacher after he's told he is uncreative. I feel like im saying what im not trying to say too much, so what i am trying to say is. These people didnt give up. they didnt give in, they weren't on television. or on the radio. they werent in the sun newspaper. They had no ideas of celebrity status. They were self driven by there love of life. They wanted nothing but to be.
Possibly driven by the amount of time I find I have since my recent breakup. I find myself searching for more answers than what most people can offer to me. Recently I came home and did something that felt good- deleted up to 100 'friends' off of facebook. random and why am i telling you? soul food. I never speak to these people, i may do in the street. But unlikely i will. Some will never speak to me ever again. Some are so divided about who they are they'll live a life chasing something they don't understand. I dont want to be around these people. I dont have too, that's my decision.
This is the real thinking green.
Ntrprnrs is having a huge re-vamp in its ideas.
Im unsure what the lads are thinking towards it right now. I sense an absence of interest but that might just be my defiant tone as i write this?
ntrprnrs- for conscious minds.
6.9.09
big choon.
fat video, even fatter track.
could not be any more perfect for my current hungover state.
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